Turning to Others for Help

Through my painfully long journey towards acquiring the attention of one for all of the right reasons, I continue to acquire it for all of the wrong reasons. This is the case especially when a few peers turn to me communicatively in order to connect with me to access my brain's linking of thinks so as to make sense of the essays that they need to write.

I still remember the day that a person in a class of mine found me on Facebook, and added me. I spent minutes looking at their profile pictures in an attempt to see who this person was and it came to my realisation that they were from my fiction class. Thinking that it was for some strange romantic endeavour, one which I would not have consented to, our discussion eventuated in him needing assistance with his essay. I told him that I would not mind reading over it once he had written it, and those were the terms that were agreed on. A couple of days later he messaged me asking me if I had firstly read one of the novels that we are required to write an essay about, and secondly if I had picked out any good quotes for him to use in his essay - wait, I had not agreed to this?

It is disappointing that this is so. It begins with compliments, "you're so smart!" or "you're so nice!" or, my favourite, "can you make [my essay] sound a bit smarter and better so I can pass?" It is all pure laziness. It is a classic case of paying the nerd to do you homework, however nowadays it is done with bribery via compliments. I have fallen for none of those compliments, and though I thought that at one stage these people actually cared enough to have me be something more meaningful to them than an academic slave, I will think no longer of them. Thank God that class is over - literally.

I am not as intelligent as they think me to be. I put more effort into things than most, thus my level of intellect should not be mistaken by my willingness to achieve. I believe anybody can achieve what I have, and that if one does not pursue one does not acquire - I am not, in saying this, legitimising the pursuing of a 'smarter person' to lure into writing your essays. An essay is an idea produced by its writer, how is one meant to bring forth their idea if it is being supplied by someone else?

It is rather cruel to put somebody through this. Ancient days of asking for a favour face to face have died off, and now people communicate socially in order to up their antes, to improve their chances of passing beyond who they communicate with by doing nothing but pleading. This is reminiscent of somebody 'ghosting' an article for a small sum of money - the host of that 'ghost's' writing then revels in the celebratory acknowledgement of something that they paid for. That is no different to my current circumstance, one which I shall abolish immediately.

Nobody should have to go through this gross misuse of intellect. I am beginning to question the point in offering someone assistance, offering my services to others. As a future educator I am content with assisting those who ask me for assistance, but I will not 'ghost' their work on my behalf only to watch them carouse on my efforts.