The Lost Bird

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I have been entirely caught up in my high school placement as of late that any simple daily task becomes a difficult one that I find myself unable to complete. And I begin to wonder, am I doing the right thing?

No. I am not. And that is because I have become disorganised. That is what I need to reevaluate about myself at the moment.  I have become so accustomed to the laid-backness of university student lifestyle that it has become hard for me to become accustomed to my temporary stay at a high school, a place where organisation is highly essential. 

And so my days are quite fast. I spend my mornings and afternoons at placement, and then I come home, sit immobile for hours on end until I feel that I have regained some headspace, wherein I find that the time has gone by so fast that I have barely any time to shower or write up lesson plans for the following day. This all becomes disastrous when I come to the realisation that in the duration of these busy times, I am meant to be completing work for my laid back university. Reading lengthy novels, forming opinions on them, creating art works, creating lesson plans for art works, working on folios - it never ends. The list is growing rapidly and I am accomplishing less than I should at this point in time. 

But something occurred to me just then, as I was getting out of the shower. I heard a bird calling. It is 11:30pm in the evening - all birds should be fast asleep at this point of the night. But this one was not. It called twice. It sounded desperate for a reply. I have come to the conclusion that it is lost. In this cold, dark, wet night, it is lost, calling out to its family or friends and it cannot find anyone. It is quiet now because all I hear is the heavy pouring of the rain.

It is lost. It is drowning in its confusion - how could it let itself be lost in a desolate setting wherein it does not belong? How could it not have eaten and found a place to roost before sundown? How could it lose its flock of friends and relatives? How is it feeling at the moment?

And something else occurred to me. I am that bird.